The One That Got AWAY..

So my friend Erin.. I love her to death.. she tried to put me on blast on her facebook status and on her blog..
it was in a nice way tho.. but like I told her, no one I know knows her.. so shit.. why not put her on blast where she put me on blast...

This is her.. i would tell you our story.. but i think she could tell you better..
if youre interested.. follow this link.. and learn a little about my past..

Learn something??
Good..

Well here is another one.. partially about you..
i can only say so much about me.. people are usually defined but perception.. so this will show u a lil bit about how people feel or have felt about me..
so this is one from Chavi.. we have had our ups and downs.. and im glad our downs have came back up...


so she how she has felt.. click here

If anyone else blogged about me.. i wouldve put them on here too.. but i havent noticed any other one...

but these 2 ladies have their own blogs.. follow them..
you know if i follow them, they gotta be interesting...

My Dilemma

::that word just looks wrong everytime i spell it:: anyways..

here one of my minor dilemmas...

So im in a new city.. well i guess it aint new no more after a year and a half right? well i get asked often:

So who are u talkin to these days?

My answer is: No One..

They then ask: why? not or that make the "whatever nigga" face... you know the face people make when they put their lips to the side..

My answer be that all I see is hood star's (star is rats backwards) or gurls thats too boogi (sp*) or they like light skinned dudes.. so im outta luck..

so they ask me where do i be at.. my answer is that im always at work.. I really wouldnt date a chick thats a regular Deveroes shopper.. thats really not a chick for me.. we dont even have enuff gurls stuff for a chick to be a regular shopper unless she got a lil kid.. or a nigga..

then when i go out.. its usually to the Lobby.. them old chicks be cool.. but im cool on they drunk asses.. I only go there bc i aint gotta dress up.. I dont be feeling like goin through the whole "finding something that will keep me from being stopped at the door" thing.. so I like to good comfortable..


This is what I call comfortable.. air maxes.. jordans, a hat whatever..

Then if i do happen to go to the places where I gotta dress up, then these chicks are acting too stuck up just because they gotta damn dress on.. thats fine.. do u boo.. im just cool on that extra-ness..

Where do u find a real ass person?? I mean, Im at work all the time.. a relationship with someone I work with wouldnt work.. esp with me being the boss..
When would someone recognize the realness in someone? Why is it that gurls recognize the good in me after I stop messing with them? Why is it that I see the same chicks messing with the same weak niggas? They never seem to look for something for the long run.. they look at the appearance and think that will be enough to keep them happy...
I dont understand why gurls havent smarten up.. even my smartest female friends be on some dumb shit every now and then... every last one of them.. I see it. I dont really say much about it to them any more.. i mean we all know.. no need for me to say "I told you so"

I aint gonna act like Im the solution to every womans man problems but I do know that I will be one special lady's solution tho.. who that is.. i dont know.. God knows.. and I hope she reads my blog.. or at least will read it later in life so she will know more about me than previous chicks..

Im just about ready tho.. I got a few more things to do.. but im almost there.. when I do find that one.. all ima hear in my head is Frankie Beverly & Maze - Happy Feeling and ima do my Happy Dance..


haaaaa....

Kill The DJ

Now every DJ has his complaints given to him when he makes his drops
(drops are when a DJ says his name of nickname on a mix cd in the middle of a song)
and there aint nothin worse than bein in a good groove on one of your favorite RnB mixes and the dammit DJ yells and screams over your favorite part and fucks up the whole mood.. he some examples

Mood Muzak from jeff on Vimeo.

Now if you got some DJ DURL mixes.. I aint that bad.. youll hear me or a female voice say my name but ill be damned if i make all the noises that DJ AIRHORN made...
shit..
thatll make me throw a mix cd away..
But i thought it was funny and it hit home due to complaints that I get..

My Sunday Playlist..

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My Top 10 Favorite Songs of ALL TIME

This was a note that my nigga put up on facebook.. and i had to post mine..
but i have to always tell stories behind my choices.. its always some type of memory or something connected.. I dont have more favorites but these came to my head the quickest..

If you know me know me.. you will know prolly 3 off the bat..

here it goes..

1. Notorious BIG - One More Chance
I mean damn.. this song is the shit.. its classic, raw, funny and witty.. its some real nigga shit.. go a good ass beat.. you can hear this any night, at any bar, and you will see everyone start groovin... ((did i just say "groovin"?.. im soo old now))

2. Jay Z - Song Cry
This song is the ultimate shit.. whenever this is played.. all of the guys know it word for word.. every dude can relate.. every female can relate to treating a guy good and them dogging them and then becoming the "bad gurl" and i had a situation that was like verse 3.. in my player days, i was messing with this chick.. and i had other gurls on the side.. but they were gurls she didnt know.. but she turned around and started messing with a dude that i grew up.. "You dont get a nigga back like that".. the sample and the verses are pure poetry..

3 Alexander O'Neal - If you Were Here Tonight
This is one of my all time favorite slow jams.. yes.. i said "jams" with my old ass.. this shit si so smooth..ive already analyzed it in a previous blog.. go read..

4. Art of Noise - Moment of Love
This beat is crazy.. flat out.. whenever someone samples it, its usually a hit (ie Lloyd - One for Me). I used to her this on the Quiet Fire on U92 and be AMPED.. do u hear me?? this is everyones song..

5. Mista - Black Berry Mollasses
Classic song that just brings me back to my carefree early teen years.. when me and my cousin used to just be outside all day.. finding whatever to get into.. this was one of those FLY CITY songs.. this was my SHITTTTT

Check out Bobby V with the old Rodmans on that u had to tie up from the sides..

6. Brandy - Broken Hearted
I had Brandy's first TAPE.. not cd.. tape nigga.. and this song was on repeat.. I loved brandy.. I had a stupid crush on her "Deer-eyed" lookin ass.. and this song got me everytime.. i used to lay on the ground in my room on my stomach and just play this over and over.. and sing..

7. Prince - Lets Go Crazy
This was a strong toss up between this song and Purple Rain.. both are GREAT.. but this one will get me CRUNKKK.. so i had to choose this.. I love this because of its spiritual double meaning.. if you didnt know.. "de-elevator" is the devil and the "Top Floor" is Heaven.. he speaks on how u can like the devil bring you down in your search for your higher level.. i love it.. here a video of him performing this at the famous 1st avenue



8. The Deele - 2 Occasions

Man.. this song is the biggest game u could lay on someone.. this is such a nice song.. great beat and the voices are the shit on here too.. i had to post this video to show u how throwback these niggas were.. LA Reid was so serious on those drum.. Babyface had so much swag.. them other two dudes.. no words for them.. except for, does dude have a broach on?


9. Kanye & Nas - We Major
The beat.. the collab.. the lyrics, and the timing.. were perfect

10. Jason Weaver - Love Ambition
My ULTIMATE shit.. my nigga was singing.. and what did he know about "Up and Down, Baby" at that age.. i wasnt allowed to sing that when it came out.. this still my shit.. if you have my mixes.. you would know..

Random Questions I Have

Man.. my mind be moving.. u dont feel me tho.. so here are some random shits that flood my mind...

1. While watching Sober House, and seeing Rodney King, all I hear is "beat it like a cop.. Rodney King baby, said i beat it like a cop".. how does he feel about that?? He must have inner anomosity towards Wayne for that one..

2. What ever happened to the good Nickelodeon?? Wild N Crazy Kids, Double Dare, Mya the Bee, David The Gnome, Eurekas Castle, My Brother and Me, Salute Your Shorts.. etc.. man, I wanna go Youtube them right now..

3. I wonder how much more jumpin would I be if we had "text messaging" back in my high school days.. who would I known better??

4. Why would anyone who has a memory and a TV want to be part of any "Making The Band" show?? Your only setting yourself up for failure..

5. Seeing so many stupid info-mercials makes me wonder, "how come I never tried to follow thru on my crazy inventions" ... ie.. colored rubber tires for cars like red, pink, white, yellow.. they would leave some crazy skid marks..

6. I dont understand people now a days.. why?

7. I have a bitter/sweet relationship with my hometown.. i love being from there.. but i really dont like it there.. but i love going back.. but when im there, i wanna come back to columbus... whats the deal with that?

8. I wouldnt trade my life for Chris Browns... would u? Im sayin tho.. lets make this a legit question/statement.. Im a cool dude with regular money and everyday issues.. my biggest problem when I wake up is what shoes i wanna wrinkle while at work or which vehicle i wanna drive.. I only have 2 to choose from.. either the insured car or the uninsured truck.. minor issues right? well.. the more money you make, the more problems you get.. apparently.. ie, Mike Vick, Bobby Brown, Chris Brown, B2k.. and if it aint the law that messes u up, the money might.. ie Kanye West.. yeah, they live the life i would love to live. Being recognized and loved all over the world.. but if i have a problem or issue, im sure Sarah Smith in Los Angelos wont know about it and blog about it bc she couldnt give any less of a fuck about who i am... but if i were famous.. all my business would be in blogs, vlogs and facebook status... is that what I want??

9. Why cant I eat good food and not gain weight?? thats some bullshit.. everything I like is not good for me..

10. I ofter wonder, why do big gurls, who have big breast, tend to show them off like they dont have big bodies?? like the itties are gonna blinds us..

11. What made Dennys think of "Nannerpuss"?? i think that is disgusting..

12. So now that we have Obama in office, is Black History Month not important?? I aint really heard no type of black history facts this month...

thats about all the randoms I have now.. if i start thinking, then it wont be random will it??

Damn Homie

This really couldda been me..
I look back at all the chicks I liked, messed with, got played by,got shitted on by... And I look at their life, and situations and I thank GOD.. Aint too many chicks that I used to mess with in better situations than I am in now.. no disrespect to the ones im still cool with, but its mainly the ones i dont speak to no more..
I mean.. there are some with 3 and 4 kids.. when i messed with them, they had none.. and im glad it wasnt me..
I used to feel like "Good Luck Chuck" bc after i would mess with someone, they would hurry up and jump into their next relationship, and getr pregnant and/or get married.. honestly.. it was about 6 gurls in a row that got pregnant or married after i messed with them... WTF?
Was it that i wasnt showing the attention they wanted.. and that person did and they just went ALL IN with them?? I know i wasnt ready for no family back then, so why lead you on to thinkin i was.. so i was always chillin, enjoying their company, but I guess i wassnt movin fast enough for them...
Oh well..

I just feel that I know better.. so I keep it movin in slow motion..

Yeah, I got gurls that I call my babymomma.. but do I really want that? I mean, the nigga in my would like to get a coupla gurls pregnant just to keep them around, but the private-school-taught male knows that there is better and less costly ways to keep someone in your life.. thats just not a road im tryna travel just yet..

Yeah im 26.. but i dont want to end my youth all quick just so i can keep a chick close.. i'd rather be by myself than with someone that I gotta argue with for the next 18 yrs..

Please believe that..

My NEW ((FAVs))

these two videos i saw today are my shit.. for various, obvious reasons that i will explain..

First Up:
Ludacris -- Nasty GURL



Dammit he describe the ideal woman.. i want a lady.. a woman.. one who cares about her image.. but when its just us.. it goes down.. ima need that.. the world aint gotta know how much of a freak you are.. just me and your exes are good enough..
I aint even a fan of the asian persuation.. but dammit that asian chick look bad that a mother F.. and ol gurl from ATL lookin all good in shit with her curly hair...
they did well on this casting...

The DREAM -- Rockin that Thing..




I love this song.. he makes videos just how Ive wanted to make videos if i were an artist.. like how on I luv Yo Gurl.. he had lasers and colors.. i love the way that looks and in this one he has a wall of lights.. and i love they way that looks.. and then how it shows them all shiny and like they got the GLOW from the last dragon.. i want some pix of me like that.. i dont see how people think i look like him tho.. but his music is my shit.. so fuck it.. he can be my brother or something..

The FaceBook 25 Randoms..

Just in case you missed it on facebook...

---- I usually dont mess with the fads or do what everyone else does, but I always like droppin knowledge about myself.. so I thought I would do this one... Esp since I been tagged like 5 times..
so where should start

1. Since the beginning, I've ALWAYS.. I mean ALWAYS.. loved females.. My first crush was Shay Smith when I was like 4 yrs old.. I swear I thought she was the cutest thing I ever seen.. I thought she had stars in her eyes.. even tho she used to tease me with her friends, I knew she was the shit.. at a early age.. Kindergarten thru 12 grade I had a crush on someone new each year. And Im not even gonna start on all the church gurls..

2. Every since I could remember, I have always.. I mean ALWAYS.. loved music.. my mom musta played it when I was in the womb.. I always have a song in my head.. all the time.. no surprise tho right?

3. As a child, I wanted to be a magician and a spy.. I had all the spy kids toys..

4. Its weird, but I heard music in my head 3 to 4 seconds ahead of what its played.. doesnt make sense? well if youre ever aroudn when the radio is on.. I accidently sing the part too early bc thats how I mix in my head. I have to know whats going to come out before it does.. does that make sense? oh well

5. Ive never held a real gun. I got sort of a phobia of it.. My nieces father was killed before she was born bc he was shot in the head.. and I was there at the hospital.. not a good sight to see.. its been 10 yrs and I can see it like it was yesterday..

6. As a child, my mom said that I would see "spirits" walking around the house, and when we were in crowed places, I would tell her that I was see "colors" around people.. esp when we were at hospitals for some reason.. something like AURA's.. weird.. I know..

7. The first book I read was the Bible when I was 4.. I read every night with my mom..

8. I hate following fads...((see first line in this note)) so its somethings i just wont do because Im stubborn.. such as twitter, wear scarves, listen to certain cds that EVERYONE loves.. like, I still havent listen to Jazmine Sullivan's cd bc EVERYONE talks about it.. weird..

9. Ive been working since I was 14.. my first job was as a library aide at studebaker middle school..

10. I dont think i could ever marry a gurl if she didnt have a nice butt.. I HATE it that I feel this way.. but if im with someone that I might like.. at some point i allow them to walk ahead of me... that sux but its the truth

11. I hold grudges for a long time.. even when I dont even hold the bad feelings.. like I miss my old friends, Brenda and Marica... but I wont speak to them first..

12. These are my fears: Heights ( I dont like being somewhere where my feet arent stable, and Im scared of falling)... letting my parents down.... I have a deep fear of getting bad news.... this also goes along with my fear of rejection.. being alone when i get older.. I have a fear of being forgotten...

13. Ima CRAZZZZYY rnb head and a "sample junkie". What I mean by that is that I like to know where songs get their beats from.. so I will research til I figure it out, and hear the original song. I used to play a game called "Where this come from?".. I would play a song, and ask the person what song did that beat come from.. thats why I love Kanyes beats cuz it opens me to a whole new world of music.. RnB just takes me away.. I sings.. i cant sing tho.. but I dont care..

14. As musical as I am.. I cant play any instruments.. at all

15. As much as a player everyone thought I might have been in high school, I was not having sex in high school.. you gotta remember, I was a church boy.. I was the superintendant to the sunday school, and I was the Young Davids president.. I had a rep to uphold..

16. I havent cried in almost 3 yrs..

17. Im am petty as fuck.. ((see number 11)).. I know thats a weak emotion.. Ill work on that next year..

18. I see almost everything that happens around me.. I heard Chris Rock speak on this once and it made sense to me.. he said "If ignorance is bliss.. then what is the opposite?? Being aware of EVERYTHING is hell"... and i see, hear and know damn near everything that happens around me...

19. Im the one people look at when something funny happens.. I always have a quick comment.. I dont know how I process everything so quick, but my mind be one some quick shit...

20. I feel as if I should have a show around me.. it would have to be on HBO cuz I cuss too much.. but that shit would be funny..

21. I dont smoke. Not because I think its gross or bc gurls dont like it.. but bc I get TOOOOO high.. I can have the little-est piece of weed and be out of commission for the whole day.. I be having shit to do.. so I chose not to smoke.. just gimme the goose..

22. I want to be romantic sometime.. I have so many ideas on deck that I would like to do so a special lady but I never get the chance to..

23. My turn ons: Freckles... Curly hair.. Fishnets.. pretty shaped eyes.. glossed lips... girls in wifebeaters.. nice frames.. black dresses... a good cook.. a slight attitude problem.. dimples of course.. a pretty back... nice shoes (pumps, or fresh gym shoes)... thick legs.. skirts/dresses... color in hair..

24. I won best personality in High School, I was turnabout king (equivalent to Homecoming king at my school) and was 2nd place in best dressed..

25. Ive been in 3 fights.. but never been hit before.. well once in the chest.. but that wasnt shit..


Thats some weird shit right? I hope a few of you can relate to these and can remember some of these things about me if you were around for some of them...

comment if you like..

[[ASK]] ABOUT ME PT2

So once again... I asked a few important people to ask me some questions that they would like to know the answers to... So here are some answers

The first set are from Roniquia... a little background on why Roni is important to me.. she has been the most consistent thing in my life in columbus other than my job and paying taxes... she has been around since I was stayin in the Ramada on Hamilton... Im glad David introduced us to each other bc I love her dearly and Ill explain why later on...


1.when did u 1st fall in love with music
As long as I could remember, I have always loved music.. my earliest memories involve music.. I remember seein my mom and dad slow dancing when I was young to some old Luther.. it wasnt old then.. but you feel me.. I remember events in my life by what songs were out.. I love music more than I can explain.. but I cant really fall asleep listening to it bc Ill stay up jamming to whatevers one... I just cant help it..

2.fav artist of all time?.
thats not a fair question for me.. i cant really pick one.. if I had to say one... prolly Jay Z

3. Beyonce or Michelle Obama
Beyonce is bad.. but i dont see the love for her man as I do with Michelle.. not saying she doesnt.. but Michelles has been displayed for me a bunch of times and ive actually gotten envious seeing how they look at each other with admiration.. i cant wait til someone looks at me like that

4. Why do u love me?
Man, its something really unexplainable to me.. this might get deep.. but you asked.. I think it wasnt even my choice to love you or even like you as much as I did.. it had to be in Gods plan.. I would be a fool not to be attracted. Mentally and physically... We have some of the best times when we do get to spend time out of me being in my uniform.. My appreciation is so strong for ur support for me when u didnt have to.. I love how we support each other.. I love your self respect and how you carry yourself.. you are what a MAN would want.. a strong woman who would allow her man to be a man... if that makes sense.. I see a lot in you and I love that.. I love who you are and who you are becoming.. the thing that got me was how your feelings came out when I thought I was going to have to move.. it hit me here [[puts hand on chest]]. I pray to have someone with such fashion sense, love for God, family and self and someone with constant growth as you.. youre such the prototype..

5. What is our friendship based on?
Respect.. Fashion... Music.. and Love

6. What is your dream job?
DJ/Photographer

7.what is your middle name?
AHA... I dont have one..

8. Why did you and your last gf break-up?
My last official relationship ended in Jan 07

9.do u want children? If so, how many? If not.. Why?
I would love to see me with a son.. I would love to have a lil D3 (as people say) running around.. he's be the freshest no doubt.. i would never name him Darrell tho.. bc I dont like my name...


10. Do you think I would be a good mother?
I think you would be great.. thats why youre my baby moms..

11.where do you see yourself in 5 years?
Hopefully married.. doing something involving music.. and still being fresh... haaa

12.where do you see our friendship in 5 years?
man.. it can go in many directions.. since the beginning the ball has been in your court on us.. I will be as close to you as you allow me.. no matter what, you gonna be around... and we gonna have a dumb amount of inside jokes..

13. Don't you think TEYANA TAYLOR IS AWESOME.
she fresh forreal.. and dammit she sexy too.. [[see footage of her on her 18th bday]

14.what's your fav ice cream?
i really dont like ice cream.. but if any.. it would be some soft serve.. prolly strawberry

15.why purple?
man, i dont even know.. its just so prestigious to me.. its not normal but its not to crazy.. things just look good in purple.. i love it...

Good ones Roni... follow my gurl at www.klassicbeauty.blogspot.com


heres Sadeas... this is my new friend.. she is the coolest.. and aint no one in this world like her.. please believe..

1. If you could a song... which song would you be?
Man.. His Eye is on The Sparrow.. that always makes them cry...

2. Since we're doing a musical thing rite now... break your life into 3 sections and pick a song to describe each section?

birth to 10 would be the time that I had both parents at home.. so I would label that as.. Ahmad "Back In The Day" 11 to 20 this is when I was going thru the thing emotional things that have made me into who am a lil bit today.. I would say, H-Town - Emotions .. and 21 to now.. Would have to be "Turn My Swag On".. just because all of the prior years I had lower self esteem. I didnt believe in myself as much.. during this period, DJDURL came up.. and that just made things better as for as confidence

3. So cliche'... what's your favorite movie?

The last dragon.. hands down

4. What scent gets you hot?

Thats one things that doesnt do it for me.. nothin really specific that I like.. I dont like it when a gurls hair smells good..

5. Paint me a picture... what makes you tick?

well I have trigger words.. if you call me a Bitch or Gay.. and you mean it.. we bout to have some serious words.. thats just never been ok with me to say..

6. Right or Wrong?

Right.. i dont like being wrong or not doing whats right..

7. Money or Love?

at this point I would say Money.. but I really want to believe that love will conquer that one day.. once I find someone to show me what love really is and how it actually feels.. tell then.. ima keep loving this money..

8. Im a psychiatrist... tell me one thing thats bothering you right now?

whats road am I going to take.. do I go towards the music, which is my love.. or keep doing it on the side.. i feel as if I dont at least try that I will regret it later..

9. What's your biggest insecurity?
my self image.. i dont look in mirrors hardly ever.. at all.. except maybe to brush my teeth and to check my hair..

10. What do you think will be the biggest challenge for our new President?
living up to the great expectations..

11. Donut Palace or Krispy Kreme?
DP.. I dont like Krispy Kreme

12. In 10 years, with who and where do u wanna be?

I have narrowed it down to 4 people, that are currently in my life that I would want to be with if it were someone that I know now.. I hope to be with one of them.. somewhere happy listening to music with a stupid DVD collection..

13. Do you believe that God is a man?

yes

14. Is BET really killing Black America?

nah.. it would be bad if what they showed wasnt true.. but it sux that most of the stuff is reality for some..

15. Why do you blog?
I dont really like talking about my problems over the phone.. and no one is really around me outside of work.. so this helps me release.

16. You have the perfect opportunity to dress the girl of your dreams... what do you pick (from the shoes to the body spray)

I would love to see a gurl in a bad ass black dress.. form fitting.. some sexy ass fishnets.. and some purple heels.. purple accents.. such as earrings, bracelets or even glasses.. glasses are hot sometimes.. ill let her pick the smell..

17. Does goose get you loose (lol)?
does.. its my liquor of choice

18. What's you idea of the perfect meal?
chicken, mac n cheese, fresh cut green beans, red kool aide, corn bread... a garden salad with ranch dressing with cheddar cheese and croutons and some cinnamon rolls after..

19. What makes you who you are?

being called lazy as a teen makes me not stop.. my mom called me that so much that it made me jump out and do what I had to without helping her.. i have a fear of letting my parents down

20. What would you like to tell me?

Lets go skating...



well I got one more set.. and ill update this when I get back on the comp

ill do it tomorrow prolly

hope u learned something