H.E.R.

When I see her.. I stare..
I get lost in the moment..
I forget im here.. I just know that she is there..
When she speaks to me.. I zone
I look for her in traffic
I wait for her to message me, or text my phone
She's the only one I see in a crowd
No sounds, no noise..
As quiet as its kept, my emotions scream loud..
A nigga too old for a crush...
Its more like an interest.. a liking
Why am I looking in the mirror? Wheres my brush?
Durl, You gotta shake this off..
She just a lady, so what if shes nice
My nigga, you starting to sound soft
She works, goes to school, and no BM
Shes the one to know
Brah, Dont lose your swag, U cant be OD'n
18nUp clubs, you will never find her.
She swagged on me when our path crossed
Its stuck in my head, I dont need a reminder
Exhale when Im near her, I smile when I see her
She makes these other gurls look like randoms
Trying hard to match, but they couldnt be her
Success to her, is more than wealth
She wont need you to hold her down,
You can tell by the way she carries herself

So let me explain:
When I see her, I stare, I get lost in moment is like.. when u see someone and you are just in stuck mode... you could be at work folding clothes, in the middle of a conversation and when u see that person.. its over for whatever u was doin til you get done zoning out..
When we do speak, i zone in..no one else matters during those moments.. and when she aint around, I look for her when Im driving, hoping Ill bump into her in traffic maybe, or at the mall or something..
Or sometimes I hope she might send me a message through myspace or facebook or even a message through someone.. u know like "So&so tols me to tell you that she said hi"... that would be the shit right?
Or maybe one day, Ima just get a random text from her, and she gonna be like, "What u doing this weekend?" and ima just play it cool :)
When she happens to be around, shes all I see or pay attention to
No sounds can be heard.. bc your mind and thoughts have taken over.. whatever that person in front of you is sayin, aint being heard or taken in.. u paying attention to "them".. that "one"
And Im not an emotionally expressive person, but you can see my happiness when she comes around..
Im too old for crushes.. I would just sayin that maybe I got my eye on someone, or someone has the qualities that I would look for in someone.. but why is that when I see her.. Im checkin myself, making sure everything right, my taper is together, my shoes is clean, stuff like that..
All this extra shit just aint me and I notice it, so I have my internal dialog and I tell myself to chill, shake it off, dont lose your cool.. she just a lady, like youre a man.. dont put her on no pedestal
She gets it in on a mature level, she takes classes, got her a job, and following her dreams and got plans to make it.. and she aint no ones Babymomma.. ::thumbs up::
She the type of chick that got good connect to whatever you might need, shes the one to know
With all of these qualities, I gotta see and remember that I obtain these too.. dont go in too deep or too hard.. dont OD ((Overdose... ie Go too hard))
You would never see her in these young clubs, being hot, or unladylike.. you gotta respect that..
And when I last seen her, her whole AURA just swagged on me.. to the point of remembering what she wore, and even when she just be on some regular, she still swaggin..
When I see her, I smile, its a natural reaction, and my bad days dont even matter when she comes around.. it allows me to exhale a lil bit.. You need someone who can have that affect you.. soft of like an umbrella on a rainy day..
Then when these chicks start seeing what Im seein, they try to imitate.. they might even act as they are cool, just to bite.. but REAL recognize real tho.. so imitations wont last..
Success for her would to be to reach a higher level or wherever she is.. whether its understanding, goals, or relationship with God.. how sexy is that tho?
She doesnt need a man to carry her, do for her, make her or break her.. she carries her ownself.. true meaning of independence..

So you like that way I flipped this right?? A nigga dont be getting all Poetic Justice like that on yall do I?? Well I had to do it.. I also want you to ponder on my subject too.. heres the questions that Ima leave you with:

Is this a real person??

Is this about a few females just balled into one??

Is this all made up??

Is this all one big metaphor about my love for music??

Is this my letter to someone that I secretly admire, and Ill just let them know in secret??

Is this really about me?? From a females point of view, but still in my own words????

What does H.E.R. stand for, if anything?

What U Think??

The One That Got AWAY..

So my friend Erin.. I love her to death.. she tried to put me on blast on her facebook status and on her blog..
it was in a nice way tho.. but like I told her, no one I know knows her.. so shit.. why not put her on blast where she put me on blast...

This is her.. i would tell you our story.. but i think she could tell you better..
if youre interested.. follow this link.. and learn a little about my past..

Learn something??
Good..

Well here is another one.. partially about you..
i can only say so much about me.. people are usually defined but perception.. so this will show u a lil bit about how people feel or have felt about me..
so this is one from Chavi.. we have had our ups and downs.. and im glad our downs have came back up...


so she how she has felt.. click here

If anyone else blogged about me.. i wouldve put them on here too.. but i havent noticed any other one...

but these 2 ladies have their own blogs.. follow them..
you know if i follow them, they gotta be interesting...

So I Got This From Sam...

Sam had some questions on her blog that I thought might be interesting to answer.. since everyone elses questions for me are taking so long to come..

heres sams blog.. go read.. its interesting.. and you might wanna read older blogs to be current with the stories.. you might catch me in one of them..
http://mzinspiredmind.wordpress.com/


10 Things you wish you could say to ten different people
1. You have really fell off since i stopped messing with you..
2. Youre negativity about everything is sooo unattractive
3. If I take one more drink.. im gone end up _______ you
4. If you would cheat on him, you would cheat on me..
5. I wish I knew what was wrong so I could make things right for you..
6. The dudes that you like are lame as fuck forreal.. "recognize a real one when you see one" as my nigga BIG said..
7. I cant forget how u hurt me when i see you.. but damn u do look good..
8. You werent my 1st.. or even my second..
9. I think your "loudness" is a defense mechanism
10. You stupid as hell for still being with dude..

9 Things about yourself
1. You will hardly ever see me look in a mirror
2. I would never take club photos in the past bc they always ended up on t-shirts
3. I dont really want kids but I would love to have a lil me running around and I would also like to have a lil daughter that I could protect..
4. I love watching the food channel
5. I would trade any club night.. with a night in with someone I really like..
6. I had a deep fear for bad news.. and letting my family down
7. I would love to have sex on a balcony while its raining..
8. Makes buying shoes too much of a priority sometimes..
9. I miss my mom.. i wish she lived in columbus with me..

8 Ways to win my heart
1. If we are in the same room.. make eye contact with me, and smile..
2. When a song that reminds you of me comes on.. tell me..
3. Support DJ DURL, and love Darrell
4. If we are somewhere shopping.. tell me what you would like to see me in.
5. Lay on me and let me play in your hair
6. Make my house, your house.. i love feeling as if she might be staying with me tonight..
7. Invite me somewhere with you and your friends.. and dont call me your "friend, manager, this dude, or something else meaningless"
8. Cook with and for me on sundays b/c I HATE being alone on sunday evenings...

7 Things that cross my mind a lot
1. Will I ever have kids..
2. I wonder who is watching me and loving the way I am me..
3. I wonder who is watching mw and waitin to see me fail
4. Will I make it into Heaven?
5. How does God feel about me?
6. Why am I so scared to get my music shit together and be on stage with it?
7. Am I really appreciated by everyone?

6 Things I do before I go to sleep
1. Check my facebook
2. Check My phone
3. Make sure I see where my keys are so I know where they are in the morning
4. Thank God for today..
5. Watch First 48
6. Turn on my Lloyd mix and lay down

5 People I couldn’t live without
1. God
2. Mom
3. Thats
4. About
5. It!

4 Things I am wearing right now
1. Hoop Shorts
2. Wife Beater
3. Boxers
4.

3 Songs that fit my life perfectly(right now)
1. Young Jeezy - Crazy World
2. Jodeci - Im Still Waiting
3. Musiq - Forthenight

2 Things I want to do before I die
1. Go to Brooklyn
2. Make u happy..

1 Confession
I didnt have sex til I was 20.. by choice.. not by chance.. please believe..