MY Day... Blah...

Well right now its 3:05 am on May 30th.. but ima talk about my whole day of May 29th.. ughh..


First of all.. im sorry to my 8 followers on here that I havent been blogging.. see heres the reason.. I started this blog bc I didnt have no one to talk to about none of my problems, thoughts or issues.. well lately.. someone has actually been there for me to talk to.. so I usually get my venting out with her.. or she usually takes my mind off things... but since she is dead sleep.. I gotta vent on here..

So this morning.. I had to wake up early for traffic court.. I had to be there at 9.. got there about 9:15 bc I can never find a parking spot.. but i got there and it was like 75 people in one court room... so it was at capacity.. im like "Damn... i bet the cops made their quota".. so i sign in and sit outside bc the court is first come, first serve.. and apparently i had a got 70 people ahead of me.. So i knew i was in there for a minute.. SALTY.. im tired than a bitch.. and i got sit down here by myself with all these weirdos and burger wearers... So to waste time, im goin thru me and Britt old text bc that always makes me smile.. I love readin old text messages from people.. its like my journals.. weird? so what?


So i see a few people leavin so I find me a seat.. my name was called quicker than I thougth.. SO I spoke to the prosecutor.. told him that I had a valid license and my insurance was up to date.. blah blah blah.. I told him a few lies (which I hate that I did bc I NEVERRRRR lie), but I had to.. i needed my L's back.. so he told me that he would drop my charges if I paid courts cost.. COOL.. i agreed.. I waited a few momnets.. got my sheet and paid.. then I banged out..

I texted Roni to see how she was doin... she invited me to lunch.. I wanted to go.. but I was already late for work and I KNEW I was gonna get lost.. but she later told me that she would come see me at work so we could talk about later on..

SO Im walkin to the parking lot... and...... I cant find my truck.. I knew I parked on the 3rd level.. but the 3rd level wasnt lookin familiar.. so Im up and down, looking down the rows.. and NOTHING.. 15 mins later I found out that I was on the wrong side of the 3 level.. SALTYYYY..

So I leave.. get to talk to Britt.. she brighten up my morning.. made me forget about the earlier bullshit.. then I make it to work...

So at work on a friday.. u would expect the store to be jumpin.. NOT AT ALL today.. I hate workin when its slow bc Im used to bein in the face pace stores... and I will get bored REAL easily...So all day.. a nigga dumb bored.. until my District manager came in.. its allllways some pressure on me when he come it.. it aint like I got much help in my store.. my assistant acts JUST like IT.. dumb as hell.. It was a pretty quick visit.. so when he left.. I banged out to get a haircut from O Sharp.. I got there speak to my homey.. he told me about a gig later that night he wanted me to help with.. so i was on that... things goin cool so far..

I get to work.. still nothin jumpin.. dumb boring.. I got to see Roni for a hot second.. and that was about it..

So my schedule for today was to go to court.. work for a coulpa hours, then DJ at the block party down on 18th.. and then head to the manhattan..

SO the info on the block party was that they didnt have no DJ equiptment.. so im all day tryna find someone to bring all their equipment on DUMB short notice.. I found someone but they came dummmbbb late..

I left work a little before 8 to go change and get my mind and music together... I shoot down to the block party and its a nice crowd... all different types of people... My people from the city were there, GTC.. its was good seein Mike and Germoane up here tryna grind it out.. (no homo on the grind tho)

We are waitin and waitin and waitin for the DJ.. Im gettimg more and more frustrated..So after a hour of just standin around..it was time for me to go pick up O Sharp for the later gig... so that was a BIGGGG waste of time.. so i bang out.. mad frustrated at the lack of action goin on...

SO I meet with O.. help him get all his stuff together for the show and we bang out.. The manhattan and far.. too far to be goin and drinkin.. that a looooong drive home to be tipsy... So we get there and set up.. PROBLEM.. the mixer they had was compatible to his equipment... like i told u earler.. its dumb far from the east side.. So i had to go back on my own and go get the mixer.. SALLLTYYY SO I text Roni and jesse and see where they at so i can just follow them up there.. but they opt to just go.. so i said fuck it.. i should be cool..(a foreshadow statement..)

So i get it, then go to the gas station to get something to drink.. a nigga was thirsty... so i drive off.. hit the highway..and everything looks familiar.. until i get to 71N... SO im driving.. and i pass Polaris... FUCKKKK!!.. I forgot that once u pass Polaris there is NOOOO exits for miles... so im ridin this highway for 25 miles outside of columbus.. im in DELWARE, OH (google it) MAD TO FUCKKK

SO about 35 mins later I made my way to the party.. 1st gurl I see if Jackie.. then when i walked in.. i saw the pretty plaid ladies.. (Jazmene, Jesse and Roni) they came to support a nigga.. even tho I finally got there at 12.. I was pissed tho.. I was gettin text messages the whole time while being lost from DJ GIOVANNY (the person who was bring the equipment for the block party) talking bout he cant find the people over the block party and how he felt like he was gettin played.. and some other bullshit.. I was already mad about bein lost.. then I had to be lost with this extra shit comin thru... SALTY...

So when I got in, I really didnt give the ladies the proper attention they shouldda got for their supoort.. I just dont like people seein me mad forreal. and i was mad forreal.. but i did appreciate them a lot..

So we get everything hooked up and ready.. and O plays a few songs... then looks at me and gives me the headphones for me to get on... Let me tell u all the wrong things about that..

1. I have never thrown a party using vinyl
2. I have never use Serato ( the laptop program that allows u to mix )
3. I havent did a party in like 2 years.
4. I didnt know what songs he had or how to find them
5. Ive never used a Mac...

Aww man, it was the worse.. i felt so lost and outta touch.. when the songs were playin.. i couldnt really hear what songs to mix in my head bc of bein so mad and nervous at the same time.. I couldnt find NO new stuff that the crowd was requesting.. and thats what sucked the most to me was that I had to play stuff from last year or stuff that i would never play for a crowd my age... my hands felt all heavy.. the mixing just wasnt how I wanted.. and the crowd was so hard to please.. I was hatin it.. It sucked to come out the gate like that... it was kinda hurtin my feeling that all these people that down know me had to hear me not at my best... I know next time i need more newer music and PRACTICE..

If u fail to plan.. then u plan to fail.. that was def the phrase of the day....

and i hope u all dont think Im making excuses bc im not...I hate excuses almost as much as i hate lies.. I just listed these as reasons why i didnt succeed this time.. but its all a process.. and ima be rockin this shit is no time.. just stick with me..

Hopefully tomorrow will be better...




ps.. excuse any grammatical mistakes... its now 4:10... and i was def dosing off while gettin all of this off my chest..