My Trip To the Clinic...

First of all.. I encourage EVERYONE to get test a few times a year.. just to be safe and to take care fo yourself and others...

So I'm at the clinic getting tested as everyone should, and like always, I'm observing everything and watching everyone. When I first walk in, I see bowed heads, sad faces and weird looks. Sucks to be them. So I go fill out a few papers and then take my seat. Get my number called, answer a few questions and then go to the room. When I get to the room I remember how much I hate needles. DAMN So I see all the utensils and a niggas stomach starts to rumble. Maybe I shouldda ate before I came.

So Im sitting, reading all the paperwork on the walls and listening to doctors and nurses conversations outside in the hallway. I overhear a nurse telling a story of how they told a lady she wasnt pregnant when she actually was. Her excuse was that the pink lines on the test were too faint and made it inconclusive. Thats fucked up..

So Im chillin, makin sure I dont look all sad or nervous cuz niggas will think I got something off rip if I look sad and shit.. and im cool.. So Im thinking, I wonder what my doctor is gonna look like. Ima a lil shy around pretty strangers sometime, so Im hopin for a fat, white woman. My reason for that is if its a fat black woman, it might remind me of someone I went to church with or something and I aint tryna feel bad. That would be a lil embarrasing tellin a church lady about my sexual experiences.

So the door opens. A fat, german lady walks in. ::wipes forehead internally:: YES! Im cool. She ask me all the questions and I answer with no problem. Then she bring out the needles and the cups.. Nerves start instantly jumping. I pull my arm out, make a fist and she searches my arm for veins. Ima lil thick i guess so she couldnt find one. She said she was gonna go get someone who was good at finding veins.. I thanked her.

I rolled my sleeve down on my Blacc Label shirt and exhaled. Doc came back with a smile. Then followed her was an older black woman, she came in smiling too.. she looked at me, smiled. Looked at the german doc and smiled. Then they both looked at me and laughed and then these chicks HI-FIVED.. No BULLSHIT.. these two ladies just walked in the room im in and just Hi-Fived in front of me like they just won a championship game. They might as well chest bumped or something..
Im like, "The Fuck? whats the hi-fiving for?"... the new doc was like, " Ohh nothing, Im just glad I finally got some bait".

Huh? Bait you say? What do I look like? Put yourself in my shoes... how would you feel at this time? Would you be cool right now? You never see docs hi-fiving all in front of you.. Im trippin right now..

So I pull my sleeve up and turn my head.. she grabs my arm and says "mmm" like she just got a bowl of campbells soup or something, and then tells me I have good veins.. "Thanks??" I say

She finds a vein, pokes me.. and it was over with in no time.. painless forreal.. No problems.. So I finish with everything and then go sit back in the lobby. Same people from earlier are out there. Some dude that frequenly shops at Deveroes was in there, his people, couple white people and some arab looking lady. The Devies dude is one of them "I talk all day and loud as fuck" ass niggas. He was talkin all loud about if his nurse ever told him that he had AIDS he would punch her and then jump out the window.. niggas.. Btwn this and other ignorant comments, he would just blurt out how he had to go pick up his son and how they were taking too long. Then some girl walks out the door from the back and they all get silent. He stares at her up and down as she walks then she tell his dude, "go give her my number". WHATTTT?!?!

You dont holla at no one at a clinic.. not saying everyone at a clinic is infested.. please believe me.. im just sayint that there is a time and a better place to do that at...

Then after that.. he goes up to the arab lookin chick. She was cute.. but she also is in the clinic.. and when I came in, she was the one with her face in her hand.. not a good sign. He asked her does she have a myspace and could he be her new friend. This nigga is tryna spit his A1 game at this lady.. and im just sittin back.. shaking my head.. While he tryna spit at her.. his babymomma call.. he tell his boy to pick it up and tell her that he in the restroom at the the gas station.. as he proceed to keep holla'n at "the face in my hands, arab lookin" lady.

I couldnt make all of this up..

Does It Really Matter Now?

::Typin with a lil smirk::

So... the last post ruffled a lil feathers.. thats whats its posed to do. I always pray that God takes unneeded things out of my life. I pray that the people who aint gonna help me make it to the top, that God just take them out my life. I pray to God that if I'm wrong, put it in me to apologize, make me not make excuses for "being a bad friend" as she says.

Well I aint got it in me.

They used to be my niggas, they use to be my loves, I wouldda did ANYTHING for them. Why such the big change? I put the blame on me. I blame myself for wanting more for myself than what Dayton has to offer. I blame myself for not tryna just be cool with people just bc of what songs they might rap or whose team jersey they wearing. Im right on your front porch with this one.. But these are the reason I feel that I have nothing in common with a few Daytonians. Mind you, I love my city, Ima always have a 937 number.. but not a 937 mentality. Im so proud of my old friends for their accomplishments, but are they ever proud of my for mine?

I mean, I am a product of Dayton, I did go to Dayton Public Schools, but how am I really like you former classmates? Do I have ANY kids, any possible kids out there? Have I had a chick even have an abortion? Hows my record? Any drug or gun charges? Had to visit me in jail? Ever had to put FREE MY NIGGA DJ DURL on your facebook status? I mean, Im still alive.. you never had to put me on a RIP tee.. Am I askin you for money? Am I asking you to babysit my kids? Or am I bringing my kids with us, and are they spoiling our good time?Where my babymomma drama that all us NIGGAS have? Wheres my addictions? Addiction to sex, weed, alcohol, video games, stealing, or anythings else not positive?

Yall so worried about what I'm doin, what about what I'm not doing??

So since this past weekend, Ive gotten random niggas calling me, threatening me, talking shit to me, bc of some problem that a chick has with me... I've had THEE longest negative facebook messages on my wall, for the world to see.. Ive had girls calling my phn after midnight, on a work night, a night before me havin to work all day ((yes, i do have a job that requires clockin in and out)) and tellin me how much a friend that im NOT.

I shrugg my shoulders now.

I hate being like this, bc Ive loved and still in my heart i still do love 2 out of the 3 of these females, I just dont like them. I dont like what they have grown into. But who am I to express that?

So I have kept it in for the longest. I hate were at at this point, but I cant be apart of no more discussions about "DJ DURL" being so different, I want Darrell back, or you spend too much time with unimportant people.

Who the fuck is DJ DURL? and when do I become him? When do I have groupies around me? Last I checked, my bed be empty every night. What makes my current friends soooo lame? Because they werent in my life prior to 04? Who made that rule?

Let me ask you somethings that I dont really expect you answer... Why am I soo wrong for tryin to better myself and keep people around me who I feel is positive and make me smile? So am were you wrong when I didnt hear from you for over a year? Did you want to surround yourself around someone that you loved and someone that you thought was for you and made you better? Unexpectedly I was taking out of your life because of your desicion to better yourself... how selfish of me would it have been to team up wit some other people and try to bring you down from you self-improvement? But when things didnt work out.. I still didnt harbour my old feelings or hurt and betrayal that I did have to keep inside when you left. When I seen you again after the year.. I spoke, smiled and gave you a CD.. such the DJ. I allowed things to be rekindled even after my closer friends didnt want you to be back apart of my life.

Ok.. let me ask another question.. Wasnt I supposed to move with you a few years back? What happened? You got ghost? no words, no text, no calls, I was left hanging. Even when you came back, I just keep throwing it in your face?

I know Im wrong for my heartlessness. At this point we know Im not going to be 04, 06, or even summer of 07 Darrell. So why keep asking for him back? Why not try to understand the present Darrell and see why he isnt the same. Try to understand why we are as cool as before. Ask where am I goin? What are my goals, objectives?

My goal is to be a proud husband and father and to not be ashamed of any part of my like that could be recalled back to me. I dont want someone coming up to my kids and sayin anyhting negative. I dont want nothin comin back to my mother, I dont want nothing coming back to my father, nothin coming back to my sister, no one. Ima make everyone proud. I aint gonna let no one down in my life thats down for me. Anyone who genuinely cares about me and my properity will see that my eyes is on the prize. I swear all I need is more God in my life, I pray that the woman that he puts in my life will be God-fearing and God loving. Ive asked that the ones who arent to be replaced. Maybe God is working. Without the ones who dont have His love, maybe Ill see the ones who do.

Tell me thats wrong...

Things Change...

Question:
When growing up, what if u grow away from your friends? are you being fake? What if you see that you're not on the same paths, is it wrong to go on on your own way? How do you re-establish closeness? Can you still care about and love someone that you no longer talk to?

These are questions that I have in my head often. I have friendships that last through the test of time.. and I have some that have a good run, and then fade. Am I wrong for not staying the same person as I was in high school or in 04? I know back in high school, I was a really selfish person, I was a player of sorts, and I was never really focused. In 04, I was really work minded but also a club head.. I had perfect attendance at FUSION every saturday... Me and Danielle.. drink before we show up.. and dance all night.. that was my dog.. I met a lot of people from there then. But if you knew me then, im prolly not exactly the same.

Now in 08, I'm 26. Im a workaholic, an RnB head and I like to buy shoes and clothes a lot. Thats just me on the outside. But the inner Darrell is way deeper.. Its a lot of things I dont like, rather it be about people or life in general. Its a lot of things that I might've tolerated back in 04 that I wont today.

I hate HOT gurls.. point blank. If I feel that your actions put you in the category or being "hot", I cant really deal with it. I feel as if we prolly dont have much in common. The groupieness in gurls is so unattractive to me in 08. Gurls that wanna talk to, get to know, fuck, or get attention from niggas bc of their car, because they rap, or some other bullshit reason is a big turn off to me. Its hard to see my friends messing with people that they wouldnt normally mess with if these people werent "somebody" to them and the people around them. Its just so unattractive to me. Ive been told that I say my opinion too much or too harsh in the past, so I've learned to let my friends "do what they do" with out havent to hear me display my disgust. With that, I've separated myself from them without even paying attention. If I have nothin nice to say, Ive learned not to say nothin, unless you choose to ask. If you ask me, its my duty to let you know exactly how I feel about you 100%

I have friendship that I cherish, but the friends that I have them with, I really don't speak to them much. These people I still love, as I have before, but some of them I just don't have nothin to say to them. I know it sounds wrong, but if you know me, I dont have many words anyways.

Since I've left the city of Dayton, I've been on myself to not be the same man as when I left. I want to act and be more grown. experience life more, and only open up to a few key people, instead of tryna be EVERYONES friend all the time. When I first would visit dayton, I would have a long list of people to visit in a short time. This made conflict because when I would visit someone, I knew I had someone else on deck and it was cut out the quality of the time I was spending with each person. I was too busy textin the next person, seein where they were.. or I was textin the last person I was with, telling them how much fun I had with them or whatever, I was never spending enough time with each person. Later in the months, I would cut down my list to show less people more time. This would make the ones who didnt get to see me, mad. So I got to the point where I just didnt tell no one I was comin down. Dayton is too small for you to just try to slide in and slide out without being noticed.. so that brought conflict with people sayin "Oh, so you just gonna come to dayton without telling me" or "I gotta make an appointment just to see you". It wouldnt be that, I would just try to see my people without makin everyone mad. I love my people and I miss my people all the time, but how do you see 15 people in one day and spend quality time with them? When it get to that point, the people who dont get to see you as often or as long, they start to call you Hollywood, bc they see your facebook pix with other people. What am i to do?

I got to the point of only visiting people who calle dor texted regular or those who actually took the time to visit me in columbus.. which we kno is just a handful... and just comin up to the club doesnt really count to me. You wouldda did that if I didnt live here anyways. So this soon made a lot of people mad. I started to shrugg my shoulders to it. Which made me seem so nonchalant that I must not care anymore. Which was wrong, it was just nothin left that I could do. There are people that, beause of our history, prolly deserved more time then what I gave, but how was our time spent when I did see you? There was one time when I came and sit with someone special and when I sat with her.. all she did was look at herself in the mirror as we talked. I mean she wasnt directly in the mirror but she was in it the whole time, checkin her hair, eyebrows or whatever while we were speaking. That was annoying. This was a person who said I never spent enough quality time with them and the people who I was spendin time with werent around when she was. Well the people around now sit and eat with me, we might watch a movie together, they ask em to go to family fuctions with them, their kids might be attached to me, so I visit the kids too. There a lot of reasons to me that make one friends bond a lil stronger than the next. Its nothing too personal, its just more of a preference. I might prefer to sit and talk to someone who is cookin for me and jokin with me, then someone who wants me to go to the bar with them and their friends. Maybe I just wanna chill with you, not everyone thats with you.

Even with all of the closeness not as present as it used to be, I still care about these people as much as I did when I was in dayton. My one friend is still always in my thoughts, she was one of the many female bestfriends that I had, but we have both grown into two different people. Our likes and interest are totally different. When you have no common interest, what is there to talk about? I dont have time to spend my lil hour or two with you while Im in the city discussin how I spent time with someone that you dont like the last time I was down. The doesnt make since to me. While I was with that person, please believe they didnt think about you enough to bring you up, so when focus on them during our time?

At this point I dont know what to do. Im not goin to change back into the person they liked before. Im not gonna stop bein cool with other people they dont like. Im not gonna call all outta no where bc EVERYONE knows I dont call no one. I feel bad as hell for not tryin to make things work but I feel like if I try to make things better, than Im not goin to follow through as they would want me to. So that would lead to future dissappointment and arguements. So until I find a bette solution, I will keep it moving. I hate it though. It seems so harsh and uncaring bc I do love them, but I aint who they want me to be, and in the end, I gotta wake up to myself everyday and live with my choices, they dont. They chicks dont even like me like that, so why change or compromise myself just for a friendship? You do that for relationships and marriages. So until I find a better solution, Ima keep changin, for the better hopefully, and pray that you with still love me through my evolution.

Darrell

My Love Letter (P.D.A.)

Dear ______,

How u doin? I missed you today.. been missing you my whole life forreal.. Glad u finally got your mind right and recognized a real man.. yes MAN.. not dude, nigga, boy, young adult or anything less than a man.. God has blessed you and me with a bond that He has been strenghtening that he has had planned since before we made it on this Earth. So many times I've doubted God that you were here for me, but my faith in His word keep me goin and not worryin about all these other GURLS. I found me a real one, a treasure that is so priceless that I could never trade you in. I feel like God made you for me.. and me only.. I like that.
All the wrongs that we been through before made us right for each other. Think of all the bullshit relationships I been through... the arguments, heartache, all the attention they wanted from everyone but me, all the cheating, and wasted time. None of these things well ever describe our relationship. My love for you make these other gurls jealous.. but a real woman would respect my love, dedication and respect for you. Could it be jealousy? Prolly, cuz niggas dont give half a fuck about them as much as I do you. They know that when they ask me, "What you thinking about?" I always say you.. Its like I was meant to be with you.. I love that.. I feel as if my purpose in life is to show that TRUE LOVE does exist.. there are still good men out here.. yall just dont treat them right, yall dont pay no attention to them, yall just wanna be FRIENDS with them, you never take the chance to see how good he can be to you.. you are missing out on the realness of a good relationship chasing these niggas that you kno are on bullshit.. but thats fine.. I LOOOOOOVVEEE mine...
I've always felt as if cant no one make me better.. cant no one give me MY name.. i feel as if i determine all of this.. no one can make me better... until I met you.. you got my swag so hard.. you got me turning my face to all these weak groupies.. the ones who dont know my real name.. the ones who wanna know DJDURL.. not Darrell.. You know me. I thank you for being around when money was low.. when my car was down... when i felt like I was the only one in the world who had problems... when i felt there was no solution.. the days when i didnt wanna get outta bed.. you been my heart.. my joy.. my ALL
I know this isnt like me to show my feelings.. im MR I DONT GIVE A FUCK.. when have i showed my feelings to these other chicks.. I might have showed a lil bit.. but nothing as strong or deep as this... I cant help it.. I been chasing all these other chicks.. you know.. the good-haired light skinned ones.. or the thick brown skinned ones.. you know how much I love them.. but never have i been blinded so much by you..
Fuck all them other weak ass niggas you been with.. i prolly only respect a couple of them niggas.. but we both you know.. you been with some weak niggas... esp when you compare them to me.. excuse my arrogance or confidence... but I know me.. I know my love.. my devotion.. all that.. you were made for me.. and i was meant to fall for you..
I love you Hip Hop stay with me forever

-Darrell

Wont She Just SHUTT UPP?!?!

ABDC is one of my favorite shows now adays.. but dont you just hate it when u love something anfd and theres something that just spoils it..
Its like your favorite restaurant.. with your favorite food, your favorite way.. but the cashier that works theres get on your fuckin nerves... well.. Lil Mama is the cashier to me...
I mean.. who the fuck is she to be giving peoples her opinion about dancing.. bc of the "G-Slide"? hell nah.. i'd prolly rather hear Soulja Boy if that was all it takes... She makes me angry during my favorite show... I mean... i never seen her kill it on the floor like these groups do every week.. she got killed by Chris Brown in her own weak as verison of MJ and JJ's Scream video in "Shawty Get Loose".. I wish you could vote off judges...
What do she be talkin about? and what do she be wearing? them weak ass glittery ass hats.. they are a distraction...
ok.. im done.. sorry.

The Good Days (Quiet Fire) - Track Comments..

This is the more personal side of me right here..
when i actually sit and tell you the motivations and reasons behind some of the songs i put on mixtapes...
This particular mixtape does have a main subject that I picked most of these songs for.. and usually when theres someone in mind.. it bring out some of my best work in my opinion...
This mixtape I dont plan on giving out to too many people b/c I dont think yall gonna feel it as much as I do..
I want people to hear it that will really appreciate it.. people that will hear these songs and think back.. remember when they were younger.. people that will remember their earlier loves.. people that remember singing these songs with their siblings or bestfriends.. someone who used to lock their doors and lay on the floor and listen to these songs when they came out on TAPE and played them over and over again....
I kno I aint the only one.. well if you feel me on that.. you might deserve the CD.. I dont even think this CD is for people below the age of 21... they might not be able to fully relate to all of these songs...

So the person that helped with this is someone who has been in my life before the DJ DURL days.. before the Deveroes days.. back when I was a nigga with braids who kept mixes in my pocket for whoever wanted to listen.. this person has always meant the world to me and never really knew.. Somethings you just keep to yourself.. Me and her for a good week would be on the phn for hours thinking back on old songs.. SINGING at all hours of the night our favorite parts.. rememebering how the videos were when we seen them on VIDEO SOUL.. She is my favorite person.. I love her to death and I tell her all the time that she is the prototype of a good woman/wife.. I feel lcky to have someone so close to me that cares and loves me almost half the amount as I do them.. We not in a relationship like that.. per say.. but i kno that no one will take away my friendship and love for this woman.. she is my right hand.. my right wing... my bestfriend.. my backbone.. my family... she has been there thru all of my ups and downs with all of these crazy ass females and i've been there for her with all the crazy ass niggas.. and thru all of it.. we still here.. we had our lil time apart that i think about everyday that i wish i couldve had back.. but we wont let that happen again.. People never get the flowers while they can still smell them as Kanye said.. which means.. people dont usually get to know how much they mean to you while they are still around.. so im giving her this dedication.. Its personal.. but this is the only way i could let it out... Love U
ok.. the music

1 Michel'le - Something In My Heart
This song is my shit.. this was on one of my early slow jams mixes that i cant find.. this song is such a quiet fire song.. my Dayton people feel me bc we all listened to U92 before we when to sleep.. This song was a personal choice for the cd..

2 Immature - Please Dont Go
Anything that uses RnB from the 90s.. gots to have an Immature track.. that nigga Roger (Batman) got down early on the vocals.. dont be on the phn or around me when this is on.. cuz a nigga will be singing it.. I think this was the video when he and his girlfriend we together and then she felt sick while they we washing a car or something and then she was in the hospital or something.. and died.. sad like the Aaron Hall video. Throwback moment for u..

3 Keith Sweat - How Deep Is Your Love
I just remember hearing this on U92 at nights.. and that damn bass line was crazy.. wooomp woomp woooomp womp.. had to throw this on there...

4 Brandy - BrokenHearted
This version was my favorite.. but she liked the one with Wanya... Brandy was my chick early in the day... that whole first album was my shit.. i played that tape all the time.. i would (no homo) sing this in my falsetto in the house and piss my mom off..

5 Mint Condition - You Send ME Swingin'
This song is totally off my personal subject for the mixtape.. this song is my friend Donna favorite song.. she has great taste in music.. and this was my nod to her.. hopin that one day she gets this mixtape and even if she doesnt like the other songs.. she will at least like one..

6 SWV - Use Your Heart
I had to mellow it out with some SWV... she said "[Name she calls me], you need some SWV on this mix.." we debated.. all of the songs i could think of were all upbeat.. so i shuffled thru some of their song titles.. and found this one.. i love this song.. so i listened to the words to see if they could apply.. and they do.. the song speaks of two people who are tryin to find that real thing.. two people seeking.. using their eyes... not their hearts.. the 2nd verse has meaning to it to me..

7 Janet Jackson - Come Back To Me
This was one of my favorite songs back in the day that i forgot about to Plies brought it back with the Bust It Baby part 2.. I love this song.. its sooo pretty.. she sounds good on this..

8 Janet Jackson - Making Love In The Rain
Ok.. this is where it gets really deep and personal.. making love is something that i never say that i do.. that will happen i guess when i fall in love.. but when me and her first kissed.. it was a rainy night.. and this song was in my head the whole time.. the connection was crazy.. at least for me.. it almost scared me.. you kno.. im Mr. No Emotions.. and now im kissing someone and hearing love songs in the background?? thats crazy.. I felt that when i ever make "love" that the kisses involved would feel like those that night.. deep right?

9 SOS BAND - Tell Me If You Still Care
This song is soo quiet fire.. i love the beat.. but i used this because i love the song of the transition from the song before to this one.. and i used it so i could mix the next song...

10 Mariah Carey - Always Be My Baby Remix
Same beat as track 9.. this song takes me back to 8th grade.. loved this song.. everyone sings to this when they hear this..

11 The Deele - Two Occasions
Little things mean a lot to me.. one time when we were on the phone.. she said this to me before we went to sleep and got off the phone.. i replied by saying.. quit playing.. she said.. Im laughing while i say it, but i mean it.. To have someone tell me what i would say to them makes me smile..

12 Brandy - I Wanna Be Down
This is another classic Brandy track.. we were on the phone thinkin back on this song and the dances that it makes u do when u hear it.. Its a song that anyone could relate to when they like someone.. so maybe this will have you thinkin about someone you would like to be down with..
"if all you need is time.. that i got plenty of"

13 Total - Kissing You Remix
Once again she was like "[Name she calls me], you aint got no Total on none of you Good Days Cds.." I was tryna wait on them for the Bad Boy RnB Mixtape.. but i thought i would drop this banging ass, summer feeling, love song.. when u hear this you just think of someone with you.. just yall two layin together.. looking at each other.. waitin on them to make that move for the kiss.. and when they finally do it.. u just feel your shoulders being untense.. you didnt even kno they was tense.. but it feel like you just exhaled or something.. and you just look at them in their eyes and bite you lip or smirk or something... or at least thats what i do.. haaa

14 - Faith Evans - Won't You Come Over
I had this song cued up to actually be on another mixtape.. The Originals pt 4 to be mixed with my nigga Flams song, Text Message.. But this song is sexy.. i thought that after to "Kissin U" there has to be something to build up on.. so i had to drop this on.. and speakin of drops.. you gotta pay attention to where I drop my name through out this song and the mixtape.. i drop my name so that when u are singing the song.. when the drop comes.. the ladies can just say my name right with it like they are singing to me..

15 Tevin Campbell - Always In My Heart
This song is kind of a dedication.. not the 1st verse.. more like the chorus.. "if i never ever tell you that i love.. just remember gurl Im sayin I do.. love u.." When I care about my people.. i really do care.. I love those who love me.. i might not say it much.. but i do feel that way.. Tevin says the words for me.. and sings them soooo well.. 2nd verse and the chorus is all me.

This is like the hardest thing for me to show the sensitive part of my mind.. and heart.. but i usually feel better after i express it.. even if the feelings dont turn into a relationship or whateva, im just proud of my heartless self of having feelings and allowing myself to open..
Background Story:
So many times before in my life gurls would be like.. "if you told me you liked me.. we couldve kicked it" so i prolly have missed out on a few people just by not showin emotions or letting no one in.. B/c the ones i do show emotions to and let in.. they usually fuck things up.. or just leave a nigga hanging.. so I've learned to be able to express my feelings to someone but not expect them to feel the same.. the ones i usually care about and love have their own situations or reasons why we arent to together.. I so used to dissappointment in women that it doesnt bother me as much as it used to.. i just want to show everyone that i do have feeling for that I care for them.. and always remember that u have a piece of my heart.. what they chose to do with it is on them.. i already kno ima be ok.. when im finally with the one GOD has made for me.. i hope they will have it in their hearts to be happy for the one they let go..

Wow... didnt expect to say this much.. shows that ive had a lot on my mind.

***USHER - HERE I STAND*** DJ DURL Review
Whats good.. so the Usher just leaked.. so of course.. i had put my 2 cents in right??Well i been anticapating this one just like all of us RnB fans.. so i hope it doesnt dissappoint..
1- Intro
The intro is pretty hot.. Sound like her at church or something.. would be something to dedicate to a chick.. im feelin it... i just dont understadn why it was cut off..
2 - Love in the Club
We all kno how this jumps in the club.. we look forward to hearing this..
3- This Aint SexWeird
title.. made me worder how he was gonna go at this.. while listening to it.. i just kinda have straight face.. this song doesnt just catch me at the 1st listen... not a fan..
4- Trading Places
Beat comes in stupid hard.. this the kinda Usher song i been waiting for.. the grown shit.. that u wanna hear in the club and whisper it to the chick.. The chorus makes me smile.. its funny.. he got this off.. he speakin switchin roles with the chick.. from makin the breakfast.. to being on top.. to her tellin him to shut up bc "he" goin wake the neighbors.. shits kinda hot tho.. kinda reminds me on "Do it To Me"
5- Moving Mountains
If you got any of my recent rnb cds.. u have heard this early.. this song is my SHIIITTTTT... this on some "u got it bad" shit.. he speaking on the bad parts of the relationship when yall dont even speak.. dont even talk.. just argue.. but on the inside he struggling on tryna make it work.. but its too late.. what has been done has already been done... i think the dream wrote this.. at least it seems like it.. on the early version it sound like him on the bridge..This is ushers newest single.. the video is already on MYSPACE... search for it.. its really good..
6- Whats Your Name? ft Will I Am
Im def not a Will i Am fan.. the beat kinda makes me wanna skip the song.. it sounds like a Justin Timberlake sound.. 1st listen didnt make me wanna hear it again.. Will I Am.. isnt too bad on the song.. ::skips to the next song::
7- Prayer For You (Interlude)
This is a song for his baby... i cant relate.. but he sounds nice tho..
8-Something Special
At this point.. im like Cmon Usher.. impress me.. we been waitin since 04 for some hot shit... this song is kinda acoustic or unplugged.. i mean.. i see his aim for it.. but im just not impressed..
9- Love You Gently
Song comes on kinda rushed.. but it slows down shortly.. then it gets good.. another one of them slow jams thats gonna be on the mixtapes..
10- Best Thing ft JAY Z
I feel this.. i plan to be like this song one day.. jay speaks on the growth of a player.. scared of commitment and havin anyone close.. and how shes the best thing and he has grown to see that.. Glad Jay got 2 verses.. he spits truth.. makes me wanna find "The Best Thing"
11- Before I Met You
You can tell this nigga in love and got him a chick he cant live without.. he speaks on how he was a hustler and a player.. before he met you.. but you changed the game.. thats all it takes is one good one to put stuff in perspective..
12 - His Mistakes
Also on my mixtape 100% Usher.. he shows off his vocal range on this one.. i really repect that.. the store is the story of my life.. bein punish for another mans mistakes.. and its usually the babydaddy in my case.. love this song tho
13 - Appetite
this story is story of a commited man.. who still has a very big appetite for the women.. so he goes on the internet.. he finds a chick at the airport.. all types of stuff.. he on some Eric Benet sex addict shit with this one.. this nigga started rappin at the end.. Usher.. miss me with that tho..
14- Whats a Man To Do?
This song is about having two chicks.. loves both.. and is torn.. been there before.. damn near there now.. i feel this.. 15 - Lifetime
Its an ok song.. not too much to say about this one..
16 - Love in the Club pt 2
Pretty good songs too.. love this song.. beyonce and wayne do this song justice..
17- Here I Stand
This sounds like a Quiet Fire song.. i like the feel of it.. i would prolly catch myself singing it... its pretty nice2 mins after this song is over.. theres a bonus song.. i think its called "Will Work For Love"... nigga please..

I give the cd a strong 7 out of 10 on the 1st listen.. first listen is always the hardest for me.. so thats not tooo bad.. Usher just got high expectations.. confessions was that shit.... hope u enjoyed my review.. so go get the cd and read my review and see if u feel meDJDURL

Why Not Christina?

So the whole Mariah/Nick thing have got me wondering.. Why is this nigga so lucky?
Mariah is a bad old lady.. and this dude has kept bad chicks on deck.. one word.. Milian..
Dip it low nigga? Ive always heard that behind every bad chick is a nigga tired of her bullshit.. shit, if a nigga can sheat on Halle Berry.. anyone can get cheated on.. I digress

But my thoughts are, is this nigga tryna come up? Does he have a CD on the way? Is this nigga gonna try to pull a Federline or better yet a Bobby Brown on that ass??
I hate to seem like a negative person.. but i wanna TiVo this and fast forward to the end.. I gotta see how this story is gonna end up.. Im thinkin its not gonna be good for Mariah.. prolly bc it cant get no worse for Nick forreal.. he aint really doin shit..

But forreal.. who meets at a video shoot and then gets married before the video even realeases? Where they do that at?
Then.. this dude get the ultimate thing to make you suck your teeth...

but why never with Christina... she was bad.. and prolly more fertile..
just my thoughts...


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The Fuck?

What Should I Cop This Summer?

So... summer time is bout to be crazy in the shoe game.. and since i aint gotta wait in line with the baby-mammies.. i think i might upgrade this summer... heres some options.. tell me what u can see me in..

Cubs Edition Fusions - June 16th


Olympic 6s - June 6th i think


Carmine 6's


White/Red 23s


Heres a shoe that i thought u might find interesting...
Hot pink Womens Nike OUTBREAKS.. not for me tho..

Baby-Mammies

So today is Saturday, May 10th.. just a regular day for some.. but for us in the shoe business, its JORDAN day.. and now jordan has made it worse for us and combined Jordans and Forces and named them FUSIONS... Now niggas is hooked to these like chicken...

So today was the release of some gurl fusion.. that were purple and red.. dont get me wrong.. these were some of the freshest fusions out.. and if i had a chick, i wouldda got them for her..

.. and they came all the way down to infant sizes.. so i knew it was gonna be jumpin.. Every since we got them in on wednesday.. i been bribed countlessly by people tryna get them early

So this morning, after i get to work.. i start some weekely paperwork in my office..and then my assistant comes to me like... "They deep out there..". I look at the security cam and i see them outside.. lookin like they tailgating.. sitting on the hoods of cars.. playin music loud.. laughing and giggling.. mind u.. its 9:30 am.. i shake my head at this time..

So i go to the front.. and open the gates as we do every morning.. and it feel like im in a fishbowl.. they staring... watching.. checkin the time.. im like damn.. you got 15 mins til we open sweetie... Its two of us versus about 25 of them.. including their babies.. that they thought needed to be up and out to get some fusions..

Maybe im too judgemental.. but damn.. is it that serious that u gotta come and get up early... and wake the baby from his sleep that he does need to come get some shoes thats u gonna say is old in 4 days.. that all these other people with their houseshoes and wrapped heads are gonna be wearin in a coupla hours...

So its 10.. i had to let them in.. they flock straight back to the shoe wall yellin out numbers of shoe sizes.. like i can remember 8 different size and color combos from 3 different people.. sorry.. im not that sweet yet.. Im sayin.. like there were people waitin in line for jordans that they didnt even kno about.. they didnt even kno what color came out.. they just knew that some were comin out.. and they and they baby needed them.. Im back tryna service everyone... and my nose catches a smell.. an unpleasant smell.. mannnnn... someones baby was shitty as fuck.. thats when i got upset... so u gonna wake the baby.. and not even wash his ass.. but he gonna be fresh with these fusions.. the logic of all this is fucked up to me..

This is also when i tried to put myself in the situation.. wasnt no babydaddies out here.. so it was about 10 niggas babymommas being represented this morning.. what if that was my shitty baby? How mad would i be? Mad as fuck.. We would def got into an arguement.. its never that serious... these young moms be on some other...

Let us pray..
Please Lord... when u send someone in my life to carry on the O'Neal name and take care of my seed.. please give her a sound, logically mind that knows that sleep is more important that forces... that breakfast is more important that jordans.. that a clean behind is more important than fusions.. .please Lord i try not to ask for much.. but please dont let me have to go off on one of your children b/c of their love for Jordans..
In your Name I pray..
Amen..
DJDURL